Today I made a campfire and threw in the candle Almost Was bought me on a day trip we went on. I watched it melt away and watched the smoke from the fire rise into the cold, overcast sky. I have left my hopes behind and let go of the synchronicities that were a part of why I stuck with him. The word...
Sorry I have not gotten back with you. I have been burning the candle at both ends, and I am SO tired!
How would he know how many kisses you put on his mail, compared to the others? If he did have privy to that, then maybe it could be seen as childish. And who knows if he would have noticed?
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If the last message I got from Almost Was, was "All understood and all Good! I'll keep you posted at the crossroads and feel free to do the same....smiles and Merry Xmas...",
would it be ok to ask him to repeat what he understands, so I am sure he really understands? I think he doesn't underst...
My thinking agrees with the later (when I questioned why he was doing so, he tried to play it down.)
"Maybe that has something to do with the fact ive said all I need to say and have nothing left to say, or maybe its because ive been thinking, that if someone refuses to apologise, its because the...
Wow.
Am I thinking clearly? My mind feels like mush. My stomach aches. My heart is sobbing. I know only in my mind right now, what needs to be done. I remember the first days of NC. How agonizing. I begin the journey again, of mourning.
And for you...
I really liked how you worde...
No use in "maybes" for both of us. We have done our best.
For me, NC starts all over again. I need to cleanse and move forward.
I should be looking forward to a fresh start in 2010, but the years pass too quickly. When I was younger, I felt like I had time. Now I feel like I need to arrive...
For your situation, I am thinking he should be the one to contact you. He has done so in the past, albeit, half-assed. You have connections with his sister, so it would be reasonable to assume he would get in touch.
If he does, you already have a plan for what to do with "small talk". And yo...
Oh what now....I feel absolutely SICK in my stomach. I have tears in my eyes. Once again I am heartsick.
My immediate reaction, which I did not send was thus:
I'd like to shake you to your senses re: how you feel about yourself. God knows better. He tells you. I know He does. I know, bu...
In a message dated 12/20/2009 11:54:46 P.M. Eastern Standard Time, (artseyb) writes:
Oh I miss the knight, Sir (Almost Was), on country skis, to rescue the fair damsel; the adventurer into the wilds who listens to the sounds of the forest and has a keen eye for moonlit creatures; the Irish Braveh...
