Jenniejen really glad you are going on a date, going out with other guys and seeing what else is out there will really help you take your focus off your guy. It can only be a good thing. Let us know how it goes. Definitely remain strong about not contacting at the moment, as Robin always says taking a step back and letting him miss you is the best thing to do.

Robin and Annalisa thanks for the posts and advice. I am annoyed I caved so easily and let him come over etc, I was being too nice and worrying about his feelings when I should have been staying stronger. I am not going to play games just answer him if he calls or texts and be loving and friendly but if he disappears again and I don't see him again for another week then I will go to non contact again and just walk away. I have never in my life had such a difficult relationship where I have had to think about my actions so much.

thanks guys xx

Hello Ladies....

MStanek.....Empowering is it not! If I would count each and everytime I have deleted and added this jerk to my phone and email...well I lost track actually!

Does anybody want my cell phone# and password so someone else can erase those VM'S for me? lol

While my little Princess is sleeping going to start reading past posts on here...This does keep me grounded, GREAT Stuff here!

Mathsgeek...glad you found us here.....there is a lot of great advice here.....stay and learn and grow and let yourself heal and just give the NC a chance. It does woerk in so many ways.

Emily...did you say cave? Reminds me of the ol' saying made famous right here on NC 1......We will not cave together!

We were gonna have t-shirts made up for A/C but realized by the time we get there.......it was a moot point. So we are settling for tiaras.

Will try to keep up here....it is getting even harder to get on here at work and I am left with about an hour and a half at night........lord I cannot wait to get a real computer.

Hi ladies, wow there were about 600 posts when I signed in tonight! I'm glad to see everyone here; welcome to all newcomers!

I've been studying so much lately that I haven't been online much; I hope to be a more frequent visitor. :P

I've missed ya'll!

Sophie -- You wrote: "Annalisa, You are a blessing."

What a sweet, kind thing to say.

Thank you. I truly appreciate it.

I read the pain on these boards and I remember two and a half months ago when Guitar Guy sent me that horrid e-mail breaking up with me and refusing to speak with me. I was in so much pain.

I read that pain that so many women here are in and I my wounds feel fresh.

Do you know what I did every night?

I used to get on my knees and pray to God that He would send a message to Guitar Guy and let him feel my love and accept my apology for my part in our break up. (it was actually my fault for our misunderstanding. string of mean e-mails I sent him leading to communication melt down, during my son's bi-polar break down. totally out of character for me)

Anyway, I refused to break no contact, but I wanted to get a message to Guitar Guy that I still deeply loved him. I never stopped.

So I got on my knees and prayed.

I let God do it.

You know what? Now that we're together, I've forgotten to ask him if he felt loved while we were apart. I should ask him what he felt.

This past weekend, I was sitting on his lap while he was showing me a new song he is writing for me. I told him, "When you sent me the song you wrote for me, you knew I'd hear it and I'd just have to come back." He said, "come back????" He said it like I had never been gone.

I had been gone 2 1/2 months. Erased. All of it. Erased from his mind.

But his attitude totally different. Because of no contact.

I just strongly urge all of you to NEVER, EVER break no contact.

If he is meant to come back, he will. But WARNING: very few men come back. If he is not meant to come back, then he won't.

Leave it up to God.

Not only did I pray that God would get a message to him that I love him with all my heart, but I totally surrendered all of it to God.

I got on my knees and told God, "I'm giving you the pen to my love story. I have made a mess here, so you write it. You surprise me and you write it."

I prayed that God's will be done. Not my will. God's will.

See, what we want, is not what is necessarily good for us.

He has blown me away and written something far more beautiful and surprising than I ever could have imagined.

I don't know if I'll end up with Guitar Guy or meet some other amazing dude at my singles ministry at church this weekend (it kicks off Saturday night and I'm excited!).

God is nudging me to keep my options open for now. This is great with Guitar Guy, but I went so far and so deep in pain with no contact, that I need time to decide.

What this no contact did for me was prove that God has that pen and He's writing my love story in an amazingly beautiful way. He's surprising me and I'm having so much fun going along for the ride.

Instead of stressing about it, now I feel like the leading lady in a romantic movie. All I have to do is dress femmy, take care of myself and look great... make sure I act like a Godly Goddess at all times and God will make sure the rest is written to script.

What a way to live!

Okay, Concert Guy is calling and I've gotta go! :)