Just feeling down .... Here I sit !!
Sun Oct 25 2009 - 11:26 am
Feeling down this morning in need of some up lifting from you girls ...... I keep plugging away and it seems to not help .... I'm missing my man thats confused (The Ex came back .... I bowed out grace fully ) My flippen X moved To Texas , So No help with my 8 year old .... It will be another 2 years before he'll help with support .... I know this cuz I know how slow the state of Idaho takes to do anything . I'm thinking of letting the bank take my house as its been a burden... Keeps me in a limbo ....I'm 47 years old and should not be in this place .. Alltho I have come along long ways ... My X is a meth addict !!! So its been very heart breaking ... I have grieved so much and have grown too .... But I'm so bummed today. I just want to be loved !! Gees I have alot to give WTF .... anyways . Now The X mother in law just called me and I bet I said To much ... Any words would help me ...Thanks girls , Miss Mary Mary
Sun Oct 25 2009 - 12:40 pm
#2
Congratulations on losing the Meth addict. And well done on your new freedom! It must be such a burden off your shoulders. Now you can have someone sane in your life. Or not, as you choose.
Yes, take your son to a movie or some ice cream. Take yourself for some shopping therapy. Single life really can be good. Now you can do the things YOU want to do.
Keep the house, or sell it but don't let the bank foreclose. It will stay on your record for what--10 years?
Maybe a change of environment is not such a bad idea if it will keep you from looking at all the stuff you and your ex shared together. Kids are strong and will adjust.
Sun Oct 25 2009 - 03:08 pm
#3
Really, congratulations...that is step #1 for you and your family...that is a good thing! Work on yourself (DWD helps a lot) and discover what is inside that attracts you to a particular type of person...I have been working on that and it feels so good to want a healthy man. :) I hope these words find you standing a little straighter today! smiles...Be tough for your kids. :)
Life does get to us sometimes, doesn’t it ? The key Mary is to keep your chin up as much as possible :) This too shall pass :)
I fought to keep my house when I went through divorce….. I believe it is a contributing factor as to why my kids are so well-adjusted after the divorce….less upheaval for them.
If there is any way you can keep it….. do it ! View it as a safe haven for you and your son :)
I miss my ex too.... ex-bf I mean.... he was an addict too…..alcoholism. Thank goodness you bowed out gracefully….that takes strength my friend !
If you want to be loved….. start by loving yourself !!! truly and honestly start loving Mary :)
Make a list today of all the things you are grateful for… its amazing how one grateful thought turns into another and another….and put YOURSELF on this list too.
Remember this list and thank out loud the universe for all of these things every day ! Gratitude is a very positive energy that we send out….and it comes back to us ten-fold. :)
Its all about how you think about things….. if you think the house is a burden, then it will be! If you think the house is good for you and your son….then it will be !
Don’t stay in the house today if you are bummed. Take the boy for an ice cream…. or a walk to the park…. These little things keep our perspective in check…. That life ain’t so bad :)